"i'll stop the world and melt with you,
you've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time..."


sometimes wonder why things can't get better instantly. right now, things for me are looking pretty shity. it looks in place, but the feel's not. something wrong but i dont know what and which to fix first.

what's weird is that there's this figure who (at the moment) can trully made my day better. just from his encouraging words, sms, and spontaneous calls. but when the time comes for him who had the probs, i cant seem to help. things just get stucked and i feel useless. how can i repay these things, when the force just seems like standing still and wont let me in?

the peak comes when all of a sudden, i miss my jedi. i may not miss him that much, but i miss every single thing that made me comfortable about him.